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it's not ready yet. by felrokker
it's not ready yet.
Lately I found myself strangely, heartwrenchingly nostalgic for ESO. 
Or is it ESO, really? After the beta tests concluded, I felt pretty disillusioned. It is perhaps an alternative universe that never existed, in which ESO was the legendary game I thought it ought to be, and I could play it together with my boyfriend and all my TES fan friends who ended up being much more disappointed than I was. 
I will not lie: I liked playing ESO. I liked the game, some parts I even loved, but my feelings of joy were mixed with a strong pinch of sadness over a wasted opportunity.

(I've found my old review too, which I wrote about ESO at that time. If you are interested in what I thought, you can read it on Tumblr.)

This was almost one year ago. At this time last year was a happy time in my life. Extremely stressful, indeed, and yet more stable; some things felt more complete. The quality of my life is now better in many ways, and yet I don't feel as competent to fulfill its expectations.  

Maybe it's just a layer of nostalgia that have settled on my glasses, but the truth is: I miss these two motherfuckers. 
(I also had a Dominion character, but he was just created on a rush in the last moment and wasn't very heartfelt.)

So I've heard the ESO cesases to be subscription-based next month... and I really, really feel like I need a getaway. 

You wouldn't believe, but I started working on this in March 2014 or something. I got some invaluable, extremely insightful criticism on this piece that I definitely learned from but I had no willpower to act upon it any longer - I just wanted it to be out of my system. 
Originally it didn't even intend to have a background. I was not happy with this. It irked me at first that it looked like a still from some oldschool Hollywood movie where the ground is prop and the rest of the background is just a poster. Then I realized maybe this had to be some kind of accidental genius, because this is exactly what ESO felt like to me while I playing it. (cf. as a game, fair enough, but not really a world.)

Maybe ironically, the picture that I titled "It's not ready yet" will never really be finished. 
solitude cakeslap. by felrokker
solitude cakeslap.
I believe this was the first time in my life I painted something out of my own volition that didn't feature at least one person. :D Getting really into backgrounds lately. 
I drew this quite a while ago though, it had to be maybe a year or more, but only coloured it recently for my portfolio.
"solitude cakeslap" was the intentionally silly working title and I had to realize it doesn't get much better than this. 
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Roaring of ancient dragons
  • Reading: My university books, I SHOULD be reading that is
  • Playing: Must I state the obvious?
Hey guys, I hope you've had a very nice holiday with warm teas and lots of Christmas presents and awesome New Year's Eve parties :D :snowflake: How is everyone doing? What are you up to?

I just wanted to write about two important things,

I'm not the kind of person who likes making new year's resolutions, because I don't think this day is more special than any other given day and you don't need a new year to keep a promise, eh? however, this year I made one resolution... and I'm quite serious about it. It is that starting from now, I will upload at least one drawing to Deviantart a week. :D (I allow myself not to fulfill that completely to the extent that there might be pieces of artworks that require more time than a week to finish... I'm probably not going to upload a 4-5 page comic every week, eh) so... by one piece of artwork i mean the equivalent of one A4 sheet, which may or may not be coloured.

I'm very determined on improving my art skills, perhaps more so than ever. Wish me inspiration to keep my promise!

The second thing is that I made a tumblr

:spotlight-left: :spotlight-right:

I use it as sort of an artistic blog, weaved together with some personal stuff. if you are interested in what i draw and paint and stitch, feel free to stalk me. i will post there much more frequently than to my Deviantart page. This page will be reserved for my better creations only.  :strip:

I hope you all have a fantastic 2012 (I sure am very excited about this year!) :boogie: :hug:

:snowflake: :holly: :cake: :holly: :snowflake: :holly: :xmas: :rudolph: :xmas: :holly: :snowflake: :holly: :cake: :holly: :snowflake:

My sisters, brothers, daddys and neighbours:



Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
come one, come all, to the place where I have been uploading my sketchbook doodles for more than 7 years now. In the meantime I lost and almost regained the faith that one day I'll be a comic artist, but I try to keep developing while going to school, handcrafting, doing a bunch of other things, and trying to get along in general.

Current Residence: on tobi's shoulder
Favourite genre of music: KoRn
Favourite photographer: vollie, bellZ, i gotta be honest i dont really know many photographers
Favourite style of art: comics
Operating System: scalpel
MP3 player of choice: my phone at the moment
Shell of choice: seashell

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Happy birthday! :D
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Thanks For The Fave Swappable by RuthlessDreams and thank you even more for taking the time for such an in-depth comment! It really means a lot! Squish 
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Akeidamos Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2013
Thank you for the watch ;)
felrokker Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Likewise thanks, and happy new year! :hug:
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MMOxReview featured your mod in his video, go to minute 5:57 :D
felrokker Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:excited: haha! i have seen quite many videos of this dude in my time. thanks for mentioning it! 
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